God says He will grant us the desires of our hearts, not our minds. Our minds may desire a great many things - our minds may desire what the flesh craves but our hearts are the root of the mind's fruit - it is with our hearts that we love or lust. We hate or hurt with our hearts. Our hearts are like a deep pond. Hurts are like stones dropped into the pond - whose ripples are felt through our minds. If we hate, we do it from our hearts - and do we not commit murder when we do? Because the life of Christ flows through His love for us - and it is with our hearts that we love (or lust). The love of God is shed abroad in our hearts - that it may then flow out of us to another's heart. Hate dams the flow of God's love  therefore life is cut off from the other, and once we murder them spiritually,  it becomes easy to committ all manner of sins against them and we justify ourselves while doing it. I've seen it happen many times - hate causes a heart to cut off the flow of love. They stop fellowshipping with the one they've chosen to hate. They begin to spread rumors and lies about them trying to get others to agree with their hatefullness. They villify the one they hate, thinking to themselves, if enough people agree with me, i can't be wrong, can i?

 There will forever be a clash between the Kingdom of God and the kingdoms of men, as long as the earth remains.  Those born of the flesh will persecute those born of the SPIRIT until the Lord returns.  You must resolve within yourself  to follow in Joshua's footsteps - "As for me and my house, we will serve The Lord".

Churches and denominations not built upon the foundation of the Apostles and Prophets will by necessity deny those twin callings and anointings. Conversely,  those two ministries will expose and uncover the foundation of any church they enter - whether it be of God or man. The wolves in sheep's clothing hate and despise God's apostles and prophets for they can discern who is true and who is false. They know wheat from tares, sheep from goats. 

Listen carefully to Paul's admonition to the saints of God in his day - "for i know this, that after my departing shall grievous wolves enter in among you, not sparing the flock. Also of your own selves shall men arise, speaking perverse things, TO DRAW AWAY DISCIPLES AFTER THEM".  Would that we would take this to heart today! Denominations are founded by wolves and men seeking to draw away disciples after them. Pastors everywhere are making disciples of themselves. Very few are making disciples of Jesus Christ for they themselves are not his disciples.  Many of them "through covetuosness  shall with feigned words make merchandise of you".  They will use you for their own gain - monetary and otherwise.  They will use you to build up and promote their ministries,  not yours, unless they can use your talents and gifts ti their advantage.  I warn you even now, again and again,  weeping over you: these men will institute denominations so they can control you and lord it over you and deny and resist your calling. You will be there to support them, not the other way around.  Like Samuel, who warned Israel what would happen if they had a king, i warn you - yet you will not listen,  for your heart still belongs to the world, not Christ.  The world demands and accepts kings to rule over them. They delight in their bondage  - they're proud of it! So it is in many churches today, says The Lord.  My people delight in their harsh servitude, for in it they are not required to do My will, only man's.  Did not My people long fir Egypt again once I'd set them free? Even so My people after My Spirit do not desire the freedom I've purchased for them with a great price.  They are lazy. They'd rather sit than say, listen than do. I despise their gatherings.  I, even I, hate their feasts. I am not present among them and no one questions "where am I"? No one asks "but where is the Lord our God?" No one seeks My face, only the face of their pastor, who is blind and leading them into a ditch - a trap from which no soul can escape,  unless I deliver them, saith The Lord.  And set them free I shall if they will humble themselves and see that they are imprisoned in cells of their own devising. If they will cry out to Me from the depths of their hearts, if they will despise what I despise  and love what I love, I will surely turn and bind up the wounds of the broken hearted. I will heal your land when you consecrate your land unto Me once again,  saith The Lord. 

Do not fear what man can do to you, oh My people,  only fear what I can do to you if you do not repent and turn from your wicked ways, for only I have the power to cast you into hell and only I have the authority to welcome you into Heaven.

Seek Me and My Kingdom and the keys to life and death, the keys to every door thru which you must pass, shall be given you. Nothing of necessity shall be withheld from you, My dearly beloved.

 In God's Kingdom,  it's not up to us who gets promoted and who doesn't.  It's God's choice entirely and He doesn't base His choice on outward looks or circumstances at all. Some that men want to promote and exalt,  God would not promote at all, others that man overlooks and ignores, God promotes and highly exalts.

We are supposed to take the lowest seat in any fellowship, we are not to promote ourselves or seek honor for ourselves.  We are to wait to be bidden to a higher seat at the table. But who's table are we partaking of? The table set by man, full of his ways and thoughts? Or the Lord's table? The Lord's table or the table of devils? In many churches your promotion will never come because men are in charge not God and they are content to esteem themselves above the congregation. They decide who gets promoted and who doesn't  - and their criteria is usually how obedient you are to them, not God. You may be called by God but that call is not recognized or acknowledged in their midst. They only recognize the call of man. 

In many cases, if they do recognize God has called you and anointed you, they immediately begin to direct it, control it, take advantage of it by sending you to one of their "Bible Schools" or colleges where they can dictate what you'll believe and accept as truth. They'll teach you their pet doctrines  - some of them doctrines of men, some doctrines of devils but most importantly,  tragically,  they'll teach you to rely on THEM, for wisdom and understanding,  not the Holy Spirit,  who alone can lead us and guide us into all truth.

You will not be recognized by them as worthy of ministry till you've proven yourself faithful and obedient to them, to their thoughts and ways. All of this is right and goid, if you are seeking the praise and honor of men. If you want promotion in man's kingdom  you must servevand obey men, following their ways. If you want promotion and honor in God's kingdom  - serve and obey God (1 Cor: 7:23).

When the Apostles,  God's appointed and annointed authority,  were confronted by the Pharisees,  man's appointed authority, the apostles,  in response to their anger and accusations because they weren't submitted to them, replied "WHETHER IT BE RIGHT IN THE SIGHT OF GOD TO HEARKEN UNTO YOU MORE THAN GOD, JUDGE YE".

And today, two thousand plus years later - I ask you - should you hearken unto men more than God?

 Do not look to man for your spiritual sustenance,  your soul's food and drink. In the Communion service,  it is the Body and the Blood of our Lord Jesus, our Christ that we are to serve one another - but remember  - Christ himself served the first Communion meal - henceforth,  Christ in us continues to serve us his flesh and his blood - by giving us in sacrifice one to another. We are his Body - we are sustained by his blood. We consume his flesh by partaking of each other's lives  - but remember the Lord's command - do not consume flesh with the blood still in it - the life is in the blood - so, he's telling us we must only consume flesh that has died. In the same way - we can only have our flesh (life) offered by Christ to another when we've died to our flesh's lusts and desires, Amen. In our flesh is found all manner of unclean things (Gal:5:19-21) but when we die to all these we become full of his Spirit's fruit - then we become palatable to others! The more dead to your flesh you become  the more alive to Christ, to his Spirit, you become.  You replace your flesh's affections with God's desires. You exchange unrighteousness for righteousness, wickedness for holiness, the tree of the knowledge of good and evil for the Tree of Life. 

 I crave Your presence  beyond even sleep.

 I crave Your presence  more than food or drink.

 Come to me now lest my heart faint.

 Come to me Lord, show me no restraint. 

 I am weak and cannot do as You please

 unless You take over all that is in me.

 My soul is shattered and weary and torn.

 My enemies exult and laugh me to scorn.

 I need Your touch, I need Your voice,

 till Your eyes are upon me I cannot rejoice.

 Oh Father, I'm slain as a prodigal son

 given to lusts - I'm a prideful one.

 Deliver me, God, ere i remain unclean. 

 Deliver me from all that's obscene. 

 Wash me, cleanse me with Your Holy blood.

 Holy Spirit within me be as a flood -

 remove the Dam of filth and of doubt

 till I'm clean before You both inside and out 

 consumed by what makes You proud  -

 May the hallmark of my sonship be humility. 

 May all that I do be pleasing to Thee.

 May You use without hindrance my hands and my feet.

 To do as You please is what makes my soul sweet!

HALLELUJAH! Ha le lu Yah!